All Together Now & Faster
It’s all moving rather quickly now. I’m writing on my phone and I hate it. There was time to slow down, there was time to slow down right? We went to the park and there was no time for being pensive. I tried looking at the clouds but they kept moving.
It was raining very hard. Concerningly hard, I would later say to a friend, trying to start a conversation about changing weather patterns, and hopefully after, about it all being rather fucked. I was on the B69 or something, I don’t know because I am a new bus user. I am not as active as I once was and now I am on the bus to Ridgewood.
Amelia is there already and drinking tea and apparently now, so am I. I am definitely over-caffeinated and the conversation is too.
“September is like the last time we all see each other for the year,” she says in flat affect. I nod and I hate it. I am not at all ready to wear pants. It was summer, it really just was. I do not like this tense yet. As I said I don’t have time for being pensive and all of these was’s keep multiplying and I desperately need to Look At One Cloud For A Long Time.
All of them are layered together and dense across Manhattan. I’m halfway from where I need to be and I’m being pensive again. I’m a triple water sign and maybe I should have disclosed that before being active online and the sun is very low and layering the city in gold-leaf. The lights are on already.
People are already here when I arrive and unload the gear and don’t say excuse me enough or maybe everyone is just standing around. I am fast at it now and now everyone is helpful. I talk to Tomer about how we want to divide our duties.
It is 8 o’clock and the sun is l o w. Almost gone. I play Layo & Bushwacka’s, Dr. Teeth. It gets a good response and I loosen up a bit. Tomer and I trade off and now we are
f l o w i n g
A beautiful man stops on his bike and says the cops are coming. I scramble. I walk down the bike path and there are two of them. They are a cartoon. One is a perfect circle and he is bald. It is possible he could roll. I am charming. I can be very charming and it is working but not very quickly and now it is me and the cops and also everyone else and it is tense for a minute. No one speaks too much and then Ehren does. We are going to his roof now and I am grateful for it. It is good to have good friends.
Now there seem to be many of us, a whole group. Something you could identify. I sold all the rest of the merch too. We’re on the roof now and it is beautiful and too loud for the neighbors. Kate plays Crystal Castles and I am not wearing shoes. I close my eyes watching the bridge and s w a y. It is all happening very fast now and I could cry. I am not sad. There are so many moments like this one I do not have time for. This one I do.
They sing:
cause in the city of life/
she can’t wait/
to kill a life, life you make/
just keep on dan—cing
Recommendations coming next week, promise.
XX Clubstack
yes
And now I could cry